These.Words.Are.My.Diary × Screaming.Out.Loud.

alluringfantasy @ 2008-02-28T17:13:00

2008-02-29T00:37:02Z

Isnt it weird.. when you just randomly come across a song.. that you can relate to every single word in it?

I hate songs that remind me of you. =/

Take it back, take it all back now
The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than i do
All the reasons i gave, ~~excuses~~ i made for you
Are b.r.o.k.e.n. in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away.

Touch me now how i wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
Im not breathing im suffocating without you
Do you feel it too?

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When im in the dark and all alone
~~Dreaming~~ that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to b.r.e.a.k.
You're all i need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm. left. out.
Without you, im without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out

Don't walk away...

alluringfantasy @ 2007-04-28T17:27:00

2007-04-28T23:29:41Z

I like cereal.

AHAHA =DD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_OdGQRaMe0

alluringfantasy @ 2007-03-29T20:15:00

2007-03-30T02:17:06Z

my new nickname is

sarahbear

=]

*giggles*

alluringfantasy @ 2007-03-27T19:48:00

2007-03-28T02:16:15Z

ohhh myy ggoodd
people are reaaallyy getting on my nerves today.

anywho.
today i got up and went for a runn
then i went to the deli and met up with rae and elise and erica. =]]
it was funions! i got a burger and fries.
theenn from there i went to noels houseness.
we went to the parks, played lacross, drew with chalk, andd talked. =]]
it was fun too.

now im pretty tired. and not really in a good mood.
but i dont know why.
my leg muscles are extremely sore. i ran a mile yesterday
and ive been trying to do more active stuff.
my heart physical is tomorrow. so i wont be on tomorrow afternoon.

yesterday elise and rae and amy came ova and we watched silent hill.
suupppeerrr lame movie.
then we went to the park
that was fun for the most part
=]]

uhmm .. toodles.

alluringfantasy @ 2007-03-25T13:20:00

2007-03-25T19:24:55Z

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
*giggle scream laugh smile die*

....I'm hopeless. <3

alluringfantasy @ 2007-03-24T22:24:00

2007-03-25T04:48:29Z

SARAHMEN NOODLIES IS EXTREMELY PROUD OF HER RAEMEN NOODLIES FOR HER OUTSTANDING AND STUNNING DANCING PREFORMANCE THIS EVENING!!! :D :D

You did marvelous, Rae!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! :D :D :D

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

alluringfantasy @ 2007-03-18T10:51:00

2007-03-18T18:06:05Z

livejournal really needs to stop changing its home page every week, its bugging me.
my back hurttts =[[ i dont know why, but it has been for the past few days.
well last night ze raemen noodlies came ova :D we had funions. we read highlights for children magazines [chyeah be jealous], we made nachos that actually turned out perfect, and watched mean girls =]]
hahhahaha "hmm.. i wonder where rae is.. i guess ill just sing my song to myself.." "IM RIGHT HERE!!" hahaha <3
peas are from outterspace.
its a fact.
the night before i had a super bad day so mumsie took me to an-all-you-can-eat chinese place and then to the expensive far away mall. i got two shirts from hollister =]] <3
we had donuts and juice for breakfast and now my tummy hurts.
wanna know something disgusting?
if you pour cocacola on raw pork, the worms in the pork will surface on top of it in 5 minutes.
yeah.. mom thought shed share that with us while we were eating breakfast. maybe that has something to do with my tummyache.
apparently moms best friend since the 8th grade is comming over on monday night and shes staying with us for awhile.. so shes probably sleeping in here.. so i have no idea how much im going to be on.
sneezing with your retainers in is the weirdest damn sensation i have ever felt. [i dont reccomend it]
tonight elise and i are going to a bar to watch her brothers show. should be sweet
i think ima gonna go shower. love you all <33

alluringfantasy @ 2007-03-05T15:00:00

2007-03-05T22:06:32Z

lmfao. okay so im officially in freaking love with this. ask me to sing it for you [even though I probably have already]!! =D

The cutest boy
I ever saw
Was sipping ci-
Der through a straw
The cutest boy I ever sa-a-aw
Was sipping cider through a stra-a-aw

I asked him if
He'd show me how
To sip some ci-
Der through a straw
I asked him if he'd show me ho-o-ow
To sip some cider through a stra-a-aw

He said of course
He'd show me how
To sip some ci-
der through a straw
He said of course he'd show me ho-o-ow
To sip some cider through a stra-a-aw

So cheek to cheek
And jaw to jaw
We sipped that ci-
Der through a straw
So cheek to cheek and jaw to ja-a-aw
We sipped that cider through a stra-a-aw

And now and then
That straw would slip
And we'd sip ci-
Der lip to lip
And now and then that straw would sli-i-ip
And we'd slip cider lip to li-i-ip

And now I have
A mother-in-law
And forty-eight kids
All call me Ma
And now I have a mother-in-la-a-aw
And forty-eight kids all call me Ma-a-a

The moral of
This story is
When you sip ci-
Der, you sip beer
The moral of this story i-i-is
When you sip cider, you sip bee-ee-eer

Drink milk!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH *spasm*

*shifty eyes*...

*cough*..

*walks away*...

Let's get some shoes.

2007-02-18T02:20:02Z

Shoes.

OHMYGOD.

Shoes.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=tYnn51C3X_w

alluringfantasy @ 2007-02-11T21:22:00

2007-02-12T04:24:49Z

*super high-pitched happy scream*

*sigh*

*grinn*

<33

alluringfantasy @ 2007-02-11T14:46:00

2007-02-11T21:48:59Z

HOUSEKEEPING!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA <33

I Can See Clearly Now The Rain Is Gone

2007-02-06T00:01:18Z

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

[ Sarah is ENDING her depression.]

=D <333

alluringfantasy @ 2007-02-02T16:32:00

2007-02-02T23:38:37Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOPE YOU HAVE THE BESTESTESTET ONE EEEVVVVAAAAA CUZ YOU DESERVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

I LOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEE YOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*throws gigantic massive parade in kais honor*

alluringfantasy @ 2007-01-19T17:31:00

2007-01-20T00:38:15Z

I woke up having my mind set on today being the worst day ever.
And it really turned out to be one of the best days that Ive had in a long, long time :)

yeah i dont really feel like updating anymore lol.

byez!!

alluringfantasy @ 2007-01-15T19:01:00

2007-01-16T02:27:48Z

HI!! I had a pretty amazingyful weekend, how bout you all? Lets see.. On saturday ze Raemen Noodles came ova and we went shopping at Target :D We bought childrens paints! haha then we came home and ate piizzzaaa mmm. Then attempted to draw and played DDR. I so totally didnt have an attack! :D i think im cured! ooo rae and I SOOOOO recorded "sppeeeaaaakkkk" for her celly telly answering machine! then we made elise and amyness call it! HAHA I love us. then afta that we did our nails all amazingyful! I gave myself the best french tips yet! tthheenn we layed in bed and talked til 5 hehe. then ze next day.. Lisa came ova and Rae and I and Lisa went to ze movies. We met up with Elise too. We saw Eragon. I liked that movie goshdangit lol no one else did though. oh well. Then Lisa came to my house and she played on the computer while i finished my frickin stick thing. We listened to pokemon music for 3 and a half hours :D . Thheeennn we watched ze hills have eyes. It was disturbing but hilarious at the same time. Thheenn we talked til like.. 2.. and went to bed. Cept i couldnt sleep so i had to take some sleepin pillz. Then we got up in ze morning and I did Lisas nails. She now has BLACK french tips lol. Then she lefted and I went to see Stomp The Yard with Rae, Amy, Noel, Ashley, Jordie, and other pplz. I pretty much hate that movie. It was SO freakin LOUD and obnoxious cuz theres all this clapping and stomping and the camera was shakey so i got a headache. Plus we sat in the first row so my neck hurts and it made all the obnoxious noise louder. but ooohhh welll. Then I came home and did laundery and ate and now im here :D

Sarah: *messes up on painting nail*.. DANGIT
Rae: Yeah good job, way to suck!
~~~
Sarah: So i used to be OBSESSED with pokemon when i was younger.. i had an obsession for like 9 years.. all my hilary pictures that i have up now, yeah it was just as bad with pokemon posters..
Rae: Sarah you dont tell people these things..!
~~~
Spongebob movie poster: Bigger. Better. More Absorbent.
Elise: Hey that could totally be the slogan for a feminine product!
~~~
*Sarah, Elise, Rae, Lisa watching Eragon*
Movie: *giant ugly deformed man with red hair comes on screen*
Lisa: Hey Elise.. I didnt know you were in this movie!!
Elise: ...*GLAARE*
~~~
HAHAHA gooooood times. :D

alluringfantasy @ 2007-01-12T23:15:00

2007-01-13T06:29:51Z

I updated my profile page! go to my lj page, and click user info at the top right hand corner! :D

alluringfantasy @ 2007-01-03T22:38:00

2007-01-04T05:41:14Z

Yay. Surgery tomorrow. I wont be on for awhile i guess. Toodles loves. xx

alluringfantasy @ 2007-01-01T21:03:00

2007-01-02T04:05:00Z

dear god people, update your livejournals! jeez!

alluringfantasy @ 2006-12-26T11:29:00

2006-12-26T19:48:44Z

Merry christmas!!!!!!!

I hope everyone got just what they wanted! Sarah gots a digital camera! :D I'm excited. but rae's off in california for what seems like ever so that makes me sad :(

ive had the hardest time sleeping these past few days. I'll go to bed at like..12 and then wake up early like around 4.. and then go back to sleep kinda and still wake up early which is why its like 11 sumthin and im up. its weird. I dont feel good :( and my back hurts.

i re-did like most of my playlists cuz they sucked and i seriously need new music so please send me some lol.

mkay toodles xx

alluringfantasy @ 2006-12-13T17:47:00

2006-12-14T00:49:50Z

...i dont wanna do it...

alluringfantasy @ 2006-12-05T17:19:00

2006-12-06T00:19:51Z

_{...well that didnt last long.}

alluringfantasy @ 2006-12-02T22:18:00

2006-12-03T05:18:12Z

_{So today [and late last night] I've been the happiest that I have ever been in weeks. *nods*}

....

=D

♥

alluringfantasy @ 2006-12-01T18:18:00

2006-12-02T01:18:33Z

Well howdy doo! (shane..dont even say anything =p)

I havent updated in awhile so i guess i should. I feel bad.. I kept a diary for 4 years or so and I would write in it everyday but since I got a lj, I never feel like writing in it anymore and now I dont even write in here lol. oh well.

Today is World AIDS Day!! I hope everyone wore red :)

Today was pretttyy good. Nothing too special. We got cookies in science class though! so i guess that was special. umm.. im just trying to think of shtuff to say in here.. but im like.. zoned out and cant think.. uumm yesterday was a half day and my amazing friends (ie. rae, elise, and amy) went and bought trashbags and then went sledding on them lol. yup.. my friends are cool.. I was gonna join them but i had theatre. yes theatre, thats what Im calling it now. Ive decided its not a friggin club, its more like work. so it gets a professional name. *nods* umm.. next weekk on friday I get to go down to the DCPA (Denver Centre Preforming Arts) which is a fancy theatre and our theatre group is going to sing in the lobby and then after that we'll get to watch A Christmas Carol play. aanndd then the following week is "hell week". and thats where we get ready for our preformance which is on December 15th and 16th. it'll be really stressful, I'll be there til like 6 every night. its worth it though. :D

uuuuuummmmmmmmmm...... *does..not..know..what..to..say..*.. we're havin pizza for dinna! I <3 pizza. I founded out im not the only person alive who doesnt have any tolerance for little kids *hi5s kai*! I am soo bored.. and hungry.. I think im gonna go write a poemsie. TOODLES! xx

quote a someone special told me today- "The nice people are the ones that actually care about you but are the ones you tend to push away the most"

...so..true..

alluringfantasy @ 2006-11-27T19:40:00

2006-11-28T02:40:34Z

Could you catch a fallin star?
Before he crashes to the ground?
Dont you know how people are?
No body loves ya when you're down..

alluringfantasy @ 2006-11-26T19:34:00

2006-11-27T02:34:10Z

HOWDY YA'LL!!!!!!!!..if i ever say that again, shoot me.

Hope everyone had a fabulous thanksgiving! :D

I just got back from a lovely 16 hour car ride from Oklahoma. Yep, I left on Tuesday and drove to Kansas. Then on Wednesday we drove all day and went to Oklahoma. On Friday And then drove some more from one part of Oklahoma to another. And then today we went from Oklahoma and drove all the way back hurr. It was fun for the most part. But my god.. every idiot and their brother were out on the road today.. its enough to make one go insane.

But I pretty much in the last few days expierenced..

-Extreme road rage

-Being in the busiest damn McDonalds on earth (have you ever waited 45 minutes for a fucking milkshake!? i mean that was insane.. i coulda milked the friggin cow and made my own damn milkshake in that amount of time..)

-Being exposed to waaayyy too much cigarette smoke and now smelling like a crackwhore

-Getting up at 4:30am every single day

-Counting 23 different roadkills

-Going to the only Walmart/grocery store in the whole town on the day before Thanksgiving (not..smart..)

-Stopping at 3 different Walmarts on the trip

-Getting poison-fucking-ivy for the first time

-Horseback riding for the first time in a year or so

-Learning how to jump and barrel race

-Being deprived of showers (Yes that sucked..)

-Being deprived of soap (that sucked more..)

-Attempting to drive to a different part of the state on Black Friday. (once again..not..smart..)

-Witnessing a serious car crash

-Dealing with snoring

-Getting lost in the middle of God's country

-Living for nearly 6 days without any cellphone usage

-Watched Rent many times

-Heard country music until my ears bled

-Now considers the word "ya'll" as normal vocabulary because I heard it so freakin much

-Developed somewhat of a southern accent

-Saw John Tucker Must Die FINALLY

-Learned how to whoop ass in a card game of Rummy

-Am amused how there can be bright green grass on one side of the road and brown on the other.

-Met family i didnt even know i had.

-Did NOTTTT loose my contacts down there again thank god..

-Found out my grandma has an bright blue toilet with blue toilet water. that was interesting.

-Got sick

-Am in so much fucking pain. Every nerve, muscle, tendon, tissue, bone, cell, vein, capillary, and artery hurts like hell from the combination of being in the car for so long and then riding the horses.

and of course

-MISSED YOU ALL SO GODDAMN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im so glad to be home now. <33